Monday, 28 June 2010

What are you afraid of?



I haven’t been tagged for a meme in quite a while, but last week, Yummy Mummy No1 got me for the ‘What are you afraid of’ meme. I’m told that the rule is you share your fear and then tag five more lovelies, who then have to share their fears too.

Now, being completely honest, I’m not usually that open about my fears. I’d much rather pretend that I don’t have any fears. Naturally, there are the usual suspects – death, or more accurately, pain in death, bad illnesses (me and my family), not being able to lose the baby weight second time around – you know the sort of thing. But, I don’t really think it would be quite in the spirit of things to cite one of those.

So, instead, let me reveal (briefly – I don’t want to bore you to death) one of my irrational fears. The sea.

Don’t get me wrong, I absolutely love going to the beach and I can certainly handle splashing around in a swimming pool when the weather is warm. But actually swimming in the sea is a non-starter. I think it probably stems from my childhood. I’m absolutely blind – my current prescription is minus 14 – and I’ve worn spectacles all my life. Since I was 11, I’ve worn contact lenses, but when I was smaller, I had glasses, and obviously, I couldn’t take those when I ventured down to the sea shore with my brother and sister. They thought it was hilarious that I couldn’t see them, so, despite my parents telling them to ‘look after me’ (embarrassing enough, since I am the eldest) they used to run away from me and then leave me to find my way back to my parents. Which I rarely succeeded in – usually my mum or dad had to come and rescue me.

In an attempt to overcome my problem, I used to memorise what my mum’s swimming costume looked like without wearing my glasses, and then try and find that when the lovely siblings ran away. This plan did not go so well when I started talking to a complete stranger, just because she had the same costume as my mum. After that, I just decided that it was much easier to stay on the sunbed, rather than go in the sea at all.

Of course, nowadays, it should be a completely different story. I have daily disposable contact lenses – so if the worst should happen, and they came out in the sea – I’d just be able to get out a new pair. But somehow I just can’t enjoy being in the sea, no matter how hard I try. I’m even worse on small boats or pedalos – I still rigidly, clinging on for dear life and just wait for the moment I can step on dry land. I know that I’m going to have to suffer through various traumas when the kids get older and want to do these sorts of activities on family holidays. And maybe this will help me finally overcome my fear. But I think it’s far more likely that my children will pick up where my siblings left off...

I've recently discovered some great new blogs, and I'd like to find out what they are afraid of (apologies if you've already had this meme - I did try to check but forgive me if I missed it):

The Moiderer
Purple Ramblings
Frog in the Field
20something Mum
Vegemitevix

8 comments:

  1. Thanks for the meme tag hun, lovely to think you're enjoying ma blog! Oh yes I have fears. Obviously not so much naked in public, being the reluctant stripper at the gym, painting my breasts in the boardroom with ballpoint pen, or a flying brazilian because those things I've blogged about. Oh but there is a really icky fear I cannot shake....

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  2. You aren't the only one with the sea.

    I pushed my sister off a jetty on Portobella Beach in Leith, aged 8, thinking the water was as shallow one side as it had been the other. This was in the days when publicly smacking the Grandparent out of your child was allowed, and applauded! Jeeze did I get in trouble!

    To my knowledge she still can't swim. Ooops.

    I had already done this, but thanks for discovering my blog xx

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  3. So with you on the sight - I had the laser op done in the end. Also hate the sea - I have a morbid fear of - yuck - fish swimming in it while I'm in it too. I know, it's a bit crazy. But there we are!

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  4. Vegemitevix - can't wait to hear more about it ;o)

    20SM - I should introduce you to my sister. You'll get along famously!

    DD - how brave. Cannot handle the idea of lasers. What if it goes wrong and I have no sight at all? Too traumatic by far. With you on the fish front though...

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  5. I wrote a post on fear for the writing workshop many months ago. You can see it here http://www.themoiderer.com/blog/2010/02/writing-workshop-tell-me-about-a-time-when-you-felt-the-fear-and-did-it-anyway.html
    Not sure if this counts as completing the meme? Not sure if I should re-post with the meme tag cos I keep on doing too many bloomin deep posts!

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  6. Many months ago I did this:
    http://www.themoiderer.com/blog/2010/02/writing-workshop-tell-me-about-a-time-when-you-felt-the-fear-and-did-it-anyway.html
    For Josie's Writing workshop over at Sleep is for the Weak. Does this count? Do you think I should re-issue with the Fear badge?

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  7. Oh I sooooo get this one! I won't even put so much as a toe in the sea! That is part due to a fish phobia *shudder* and I am in fact terrified of water. I was forced to learn how to swim as a child, which I did. But I have never gotten over my fear of water and will only even go in a pool if I can grasp on to the edge at all times!

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  8. Oh I sooooo get this one! I won't even put so much as a toe in the sea! That is part due to a fish phobia *shudder* and I am in fact terrified of water. I was forced to learn how to swim as a child, which I did. But I have never gotten over my fear of water and will only even go in a pool if I can grasp on to the edge at all times!

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